Thursday, December 15, 2005

My ship is sinking.

i don't even care anymore. i'm going to let it take me. i give up. yesterday i had -$769.34 in my account. and this is what is looks like today:

12/14/2005 FEE/*OVERDRAFT CHARGE $30.00 -$835.11
12/14/2005 FEE/*OVERDRAFT CHARGE $30.00 -$805.11
12/14/2005 DRCTDBT/VISA-STARBUCKS NEWYORK $5.77 -$775.11
12/13/2005 CHECK/****** ($605.00) -$769.34
12/13/2005 ATM/105 W.125TH ST, NEW YORK $40.00 -$164.34
12/12/2005 FEE/*RETURNED DEPOSITED ITEM FEE $10.00 -$124.34
12/12/2005 OTHER/*RETURNED DEPOSITED ITEM $1,005.51 -$114.34


see the starbucks? yeah. i went to starbucks 3 days ago, when i had $900 in the bank. i payed with my credit/debit. now i will soon have another $30 fee for a $6 dollar coffee. see the other two $30 dollar fees? those are for the $40 i took from the ATM and the rent check. I am so fucked. yeah so i thought the best thing to do is post this on my blog.

i called the bank. and yes my paycheck bounce. the bank destroyed the check but they have sent a copy to me in the mail.i must wait for it. i must take the copy to my employer. to this i said, "my employer is out of town and i have no money. no money at all. i have $-835.11" she felt very bad for me. that was nice of her.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Its' not my fault

It's not my fault. a 1000 dollars suddenly disappeared from my account, i took 40 dollars out of the ATM, plus the rent check bounced... all today. fuck. no, the rent check sdidnt actually bounce. ok here:

i took out cash and the slip said i was negative 146.00. my first thought was "that's funny. oh, the rent check must have cleared and i must have put money into my savings. (yes i do have a savings account- i really try to keep money in there but it always turns into my safety stash when rent comes around.) wow I should be more careful and keep the money in my account when i know that checks are being cashed."
this was my thought and i went on my way running errands.

i remembered to check my account online jsut before i was going to defrag my computer and go to bed.

that's went i saw today’s date: $1005.51 returned deposited item. what?? what?? what is this deposited item that was returned? i only took out 40 dollars. i thought someone stole my numbers. i went looking for the card to make sure i didn’t leave it in the atm. i had the card.

that was a very specific amount. i remember depositing a sum that size. the check bounced? no. no my paycheck didn't bounce. right?

i called wamu to see what was going on . they didn't know. "but i deposited the check two weeks ago. it was in my bank and now its gone and i have a $10 fee for it missing"

oh, on top of that, my 40 dollars now has a fee of $30 and the rent check magically cleared so there is a $30 fee for Wamu covering my ass on rent. thats $70 plus my rent amount ($605.) plus the 40 i took out, plus the difference that what was left after my pay check bounce/held or whatever- bringing me to -769.43 in dept. this was not my fault. "you are charging me $70. dollars in fees when none of this was my fault??"

they had no answers for me seeing that is was 5:30 am. they said the answer will come at 10 am whent he bank opens. i must call them then. it's now almost 7. im going set my alarm and take a nap.

before all this i was going to talk about how i think i really do have diabetes. i guess that will wait. grrr

Monday, December 12, 2005

eggs are food

it's 2:42 am and someone's car alarm has been going off nonstop for a hour.

I have, in the past, done something that "might could" have gotten me killed.

This is the scenario: some person leaves their alarm on the most sensitive level and the neighborhood suffers all night because their lazy ass won't go out in the cold to turn their shit off.

it's still going off... im trying to restrain myself.

in the past...i couldn't sleep from some fucking person's car alarm. I finally could take no more. I jumped out of bed looked out the window. spotted the culprit. grabbed a sheet of staples printer paper, a marker and proceeded to the kitchen. grabbed my coat and a egg from the fridge. went downstairs- outside- up to the car. I wrote a little note asking them the please FIX YOUR FUCKING ALARM. tucked it under the windshield wiper and just to make sure they noticed it...slammed the egg on the hood.

ARG! its still going off

i'm not sorry. if they can afford a car and an alarm. they should fix it.

grrr

but that's not me now.that was a very stupid thing to do. I'm not trying to sleep. i'm going to be calm and listen to my head phones and work. plus i don’t have any eggs.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Burger King gave me herpes.

I'm kidding. But i do have very painful pimple on the side of my mouth. it became chapped from the cold and then it ripped when i opened my mouth. and now it looks like a horrible cold sore, but it's not.

I'm trying to think of how and when i developed this pimple. i can only think of last week when i ate a BK whooper meal. so yummy. did the fries do it?